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Yes I wrote another fic, this one was for a request at ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
fic_requests and they wanted ARok based on the song, "Climbing the Walls". So I gave it a shot so I give you:
Title: "Taste Of Your Kiss"
Fandom: BSB
Pairing: AJ/Brian
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Don't know them, don't own them. Just think they're pretty.
A/N: Like I said, this is based on Climbing the Walls by BSB. Might be a good idea to listen to it before you read or while you read if you can multi-task.
Brian slowly replaced his shirt as he sat on the bed, with his back facing his lover. He took several deep breaths before turning around to face him. AJ was naked and only a thin sheet covered his torso, he was smiling back at Brian with a look of pure love. Brian did not return the gaze.
“I’ll see you later Jay,” Brian said softly as he quickly leaned down and pecked AJ on the cheek. AJ caught him before he could sit back up and pulled his face forward so their lips connected. Brian let AJ’s tongue enter his mouth as they duelled for what seemed like minutes. Breathlessly they broke apart.
“Don’t go,” AJ begged, looking at his lover with wide and sad eyes.
“I have to,” Brian said urgently. “She’ll be back from her shopping trip soon.”
“She’s always spending your money, I don’t know why you let her get away with it.”
“Because I love her...” And just then Brian knew he had said the wrong thing because AJ got out of bed, not caring about his exposed state and walked to the bathroom, slamming the door shut.
Brian stood and stared at the bathroom door for a few moments before realising AJ was not going to come out any time soon. He resolved to leaving him as he was and trying to patch things up later when AJ had calmed down. It was not the first time Brian had said something that had caused such a reaction, and he truthfully never meant to hurt his lover, it was just that he was confused. More than confused, he was scared. Scared that if admitted to who he really was that his family would hate him, that his friends would abandon him and that his wife would ultimately break him.
He left the room without so much of a goodbye.
AJ listened against the door, waiting for Brian to leave. When he heard the soft click of a door closing he stepped out of the bathroom and headed back toward his bed. Sighing deeply he fell back into his sheets, closing his eyes tightly to block out any thought. It was no good though, all he could think about was Brian. The way they made love, the taste of his kiss, his smell. And as always, Brian had to ruin it. He had to leave and go back to his wife.
AJ desperately wished they could be together, wished that Brian wouldn’t be afraid of admitting who he really was. But after a year of being lovers he knew that Brian would never fully commit to their relationship, no matter how much AJ said he loved him and that as long as they had each other nothing else mattered. Brian, it seems, didn’t care about that stuff. All he cared about was what other people thought of him.
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The next day at breakfast, AJ sat watching Brian with his wife. They looked happy, but AJ knew it was all fake, he knew that when Leighanne was not around, Brian was his. AJ wondered what would happen if he walked over to Brian and kiss him passionately on the lips, right there in front of his wife, in front of everyone. Would they think he was joking, that maybe he’d had too much coffee that morning? That he was lonely and he wanted his lover to be his ALL the time?
Brian looked up and the lovers caught each other’s eyes for a moment. AJ’s were full of love, Brian’s were full of fear - and he looked away quickly replacing the huge grin on his face as he laughed at a joke his wife was telling him.
AJ couldn’t take it anymore, he stood up, his chair scraping across the floor and stormed off toward the elevator. Everyone looked up at him as he rushed past, but they soon went back to their breakfast, figuring that AJ was just having a bad day and needed to be by himself.
AJ pressed the buttons to his floor and waiting for the doors to close to take him back up to the sanctuary of his bedroom, where he could be alone and climb the walls in peace. A hand placed itself around the door, stopping it from closing and Brian stepped into the elevator.
“What’s wrong with you?” Brian asked, concerned about AJ’s strange behaviour.
“What’s wrong with me?” AJ raged. “What’s wrong with me?” He repeated. “I’ll tell you what’s wrong! I can’t take this anymore Brian, I can’t watch you and her be all lovey dovey together, I can’t pretend like nothing’s going on between us!”
“AJ, will you keep your voice down!” Brian whispered, terrified someone would hear his secret.
“No I will not keep my fucking voice down!” AJ screamed. “I fucking love you, worship the ground you fucking walk on and you still leave me every time we make love, every time we share a kiss... and its killing me Brian. You’re fucking killing me!”
“AJ... You know I can’t... Its too...” Brian spluttered, shocked at AJ’s outburst.
“Yeah I know, you’re too fucking scared to be who you want to be, so you’d rather lie to yourself and everyone who cares about you because you’re so fucking stupid that you think everyone will hate you if you admit to what you really are,” AJ said coldly.
Suddenly Brian pressed the stop button on the elevator, causing it brake abruptly.
“You’re right AJ, I am fucking scared. I’m terrified that everyone will hate me, scared my parents will never speak to me again. You’re absolutely fucking right!” Brian said incredulously. “But you know what, I love you too, more than you’ll ever fucking know!”
AJ stood still, silent, waiting for Brian’s explanation. “I wish I could go down there right now and tell Leighanne I’m leaving her, tell her that I’m madly in love with you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but I can’t because I’m fucking scared okay. I’m not like you AJ...”
“You know what? Forget this!” AJ said as he restarted the elevator, wanting to be anywhere but near Brian right now. When it came to a halt and the doors opened on their floor, he turned back to his lover, “when you grow some balls, you know where to find me. But don’t expect me to wait forever.”
And with that, he left. Leaving Brian staring on after him.
So yes, I'm on a very awesome writing kick - And I love that so much. I felt like my writing has shrivelled up into nothing lately and it was bugging me so I'm glad I've got some creativity back.
Some BSB footage comments: TV Huset - what's not to love? Brian's awful, awful joke telling. AJ being the only one who genuinely laughed at the joke. Kevin knowing exactly what joke Brian was about to tell. Howie's "Brian's charges 25 cents for each joke". Le sigh.
The new MTV Diary is gonna air in the UK on Sunday! *Jumps*
fic_requests and they wanted ARok based on the song, "Climbing the Walls". So I gave it a shot so I give you:Title: "Taste Of Your Kiss"
Fandom: BSB
Pairing: AJ/Brian
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Don't know them, don't own them. Just think they're pretty.
A/N: Like I said, this is based on Climbing the Walls by BSB. Might be a good idea to listen to it before you read or while you read if you can multi-task.
Brian slowly replaced his shirt as he sat on the bed, with his back facing his lover. He took several deep breaths before turning around to face him. AJ was naked and only a thin sheet covered his torso, he was smiling back at Brian with a look of pure love. Brian did not return the gaze.
“I’ll see you later Jay,” Brian said softly as he quickly leaned down and pecked AJ on the cheek. AJ caught him before he could sit back up and pulled his face forward so their lips connected. Brian let AJ’s tongue enter his mouth as they duelled for what seemed like minutes. Breathlessly they broke apart.
“Don’t go,” AJ begged, looking at his lover with wide and sad eyes.
“I have to,” Brian said urgently. “She’ll be back from her shopping trip soon.”
“She’s always spending your money, I don’t know why you let her get away with it.”
“Because I love her...” And just then Brian knew he had said the wrong thing because AJ got out of bed, not caring about his exposed state and walked to the bathroom, slamming the door shut.
Brian stood and stared at the bathroom door for a few moments before realising AJ was not going to come out any time soon. He resolved to leaving him as he was and trying to patch things up later when AJ had calmed down. It was not the first time Brian had said something that had caused such a reaction, and he truthfully never meant to hurt his lover, it was just that he was confused. More than confused, he was scared. Scared that if admitted to who he really was that his family would hate him, that his friends would abandon him and that his wife would ultimately break him.
He left the room without so much of a goodbye.
AJ listened against the door, waiting for Brian to leave. When he heard the soft click of a door closing he stepped out of the bathroom and headed back toward his bed. Sighing deeply he fell back into his sheets, closing his eyes tightly to block out any thought. It was no good though, all he could think about was Brian. The way they made love, the taste of his kiss, his smell. And as always, Brian had to ruin it. He had to leave and go back to his wife.
AJ desperately wished they could be together, wished that Brian wouldn’t be afraid of admitting who he really was. But after a year of being lovers he knew that Brian would never fully commit to their relationship, no matter how much AJ said he loved him and that as long as they had each other nothing else mattered. Brian, it seems, didn’t care about that stuff. All he cared about was what other people thought of him.
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The next day at breakfast, AJ sat watching Brian with his wife. They looked happy, but AJ knew it was all fake, he knew that when Leighanne was not around, Brian was his. AJ wondered what would happen if he walked over to Brian and kiss him passionately on the lips, right there in front of his wife, in front of everyone. Would they think he was joking, that maybe he’d had too much coffee that morning? That he was lonely and he wanted his lover to be his ALL the time?
Brian looked up and the lovers caught each other’s eyes for a moment. AJ’s were full of love, Brian’s were full of fear - and he looked away quickly replacing the huge grin on his face as he laughed at a joke his wife was telling him.
AJ couldn’t take it anymore, he stood up, his chair scraping across the floor and stormed off toward the elevator. Everyone looked up at him as he rushed past, but they soon went back to their breakfast, figuring that AJ was just having a bad day and needed to be by himself.
AJ pressed the buttons to his floor and waiting for the doors to close to take him back up to the sanctuary of his bedroom, where he could be alone and climb the walls in peace. A hand placed itself around the door, stopping it from closing and Brian stepped into the elevator.
“What’s wrong with you?” Brian asked, concerned about AJ’s strange behaviour.
“What’s wrong with me?” AJ raged. “What’s wrong with me?” He repeated. “I’ll tell you what’s wrong! I can’t take this anymore Brian, I can’t watch you and her be all lovey dovey together, I can’t pretend like nothing’s going on between us!”
“AJ, will you keep your voice down!” Brian whispered, terrified someone would hear his secret.
“No I will not keep my fucking voice down!” AJ screamed. “I fucking love you, worship the ground you fucking walk on and you still leave me every time we make love, every time we share a kiss... and its killing me Brian. You’re fucking killing me!”
“AJ... You know I can’t... Its too...” Brian spluttered, shocked at AJ’s outburst.
“Yeah I know, you’re too fucking scared to be who you want to be, so you’d rather lie to yourself and everyone who cares about you because you’re so fucking stupid that you think everyone will hate you if you admit to what you really are,” AJ said coldly.
Suddenly Brian pressed the stop button on the elevator, causing it brake abruptly.
“You’re right AJ, I am fucking scared. I’m terrified that everyone will hate me, scared my parents will never speak to me again. You’re absolutely fucking right!” Brian said incredulously. “But you know what, I love you too, more than you’ll ever fucking know!”
AJ stood still, silent, waiting for Brian’s explanation. “I wish I could go down there right now and tell Leighanne I’m leaving her, tell her that I’m madly in love with you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but I can’t because I’m fucking scared okay. I’m not like you AJ...”
“You know what? Forget this!” AJ said as he restarted the elevator, wanting to be anywhere but near Brian right now. When it came to a halt and the doors opened on their floor, he turned back to his lover, “when you grow some balls, you know where to find me. But don’t expect me to wait forever.”
And with that, he left. Leaving Brian staring on after him.
So yes, I'm on a very awesome writing kick - And I love that so much. I felt like my writing has shrivelled up into nothing lately and it was bugging me so I'm glad I've got some creativity back.
Some BSB footage comments: TV Huset - what's not to love? Brian's awful, awful joke telling. AJ being the only one who genuinely laughed at the joke. Kevin knowing exactly what joke Brian was about to tell. Howie's "Brian's charges 25 cents for each joke". Le sigh.
The new MTV Diary is gonna air in the UK on Sunday! *Jumps*
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